Saturday December 1st. I feel like i'm at this weird point in life where I just don't know where to go. In the past I have always had hope for the future. Had something to look forward to. A hope that.. one day my life will move forward. All of that hope is gone. I used to find so much happiness in my friends. I don't even have that anymore. I have grown up and have found how lonely one can feel when everyone around them moves on... This is not a pity party or a moment of self loathing.. but a reflection. I try to remain happy, hopeful and to pretend that I am not lonely but the truth is that I am. I don't know how to find happiness anymore and feel as if everyone has lost faith in me. So, the question.. is.. what now. How do I progress? How do I find my happiness? How do i get people to believe in me? I shall keep searching.