Saturday December 1st. I feel like i'm at this weird point in life where I just don't know where to go. In the past I have always had hope for the future. Had something to look forward to. A hope that.. one day my life will move forward. All of that hope is gone. I used to find so much happiness in my friends. I don't even have that anymore. I have grown up and have found how lonely one can feel when everyone around them moves on... This is not a pity party or a moment of self loathing.. but a reflection. I try to remain happy, hopeful and to pretend that I am not lonely but the truth is that I am. I don't know how to find happiness anymore and feel as if everyone has lost faith in me. So, the question.. is.. what now. How do I progress? How do I find my happiness? How do i get people to believe in me? I shall keep searching.

Hurts.

Yeah. It hurts.


I'm strong though. I have never let myself fall for anyone. If you were falling than I would catch you. I loved the way you took me the way I am. I would still catch you. I would. It nice to know I am able to love. I'm a new soul. It still hurts. I'll make it. This is a happy end. Cause you don't understand everything you have done. This is a happy end. Come and give me your hand. I'll take you far away. I'm a new soul. I don't know why I got so attached. He walks away. The sun goes down. My tears will dry on their own.

I'm a new soul/

Why so defensive?

Why so defensive?


The only reason you're so defensive is because you feel guilty... or because you think that I'm accusing of you of something when your mind twisted it into that.


NO need to be rude, or defensive for no reason.
Take a step back. Look at the situation and breathe. You will find the truth.

P.S. It's turkey Lurky time.

Gone.

Going Crazy.

Beauty.

http://laurenqualls.tumblr.com/

Loving yourself.

You can't love others if you don't love yourself.

Just when I begin to really love myself, as well as all things surrounding me, one comment throws everything off.

Body image problems and eating disorders are way too common in todays world, and I don't want to be apart of that, though peer pressure makes you want to be. I don't want to fall into that place. I want to be healthy for ME, not for you and what you want me to look like, but for ME. I don't want a models body. But, the world makes me want that.

I have had body image problems in the past, and I'm not going to let that happen to me again. I love myself. If you don't, you can get over it. Everyone deserves to love and be loved and with that comes love from inside thy self. If you love and have confidence in yourself, it will radiate within everyone you come into contact with.

Real beauty lies within.

Well....

THAT WAS FUN.